Friday, November 11, 2005
Havent been here for the longest time! Been studying(sort of) for the past few weeks? Computer breaking down's also a (larger) contributing factor
And my fate is sealed for the Os. Here are the appalling results I think I'll attain! emath:C5 and maybe, possibly a B4? Hahah please oh please give me the satisfaction! Cos it was kinda easy! Paper 2 today and it was yeah darn simple! but sadly paper 1 would pull me down!
Chinese: I'm absolutely certain that I'll get a C6 again booohooo
SS: Quite alright! with big blassings I may be able to clinch an A2 but I've still got History and it's best not ta count my chikkins before they hatch. right.
Lit: Oh Gawd Geezes dont wanna think/talk about it! superbly and amazingly dissappointed in myself
English: Screwed up my speech! There goes my only hope for an A1!
Physics: Chinese was better in comparison -you get my drift
yes so that's my fruitful progress through the O levels and I've got History/ Lit paper 2/ and Biology left! Please god please Jesus bless me take away my exam blues.. they're eating me out
Oh and I'm getting quite rightfully pissed off
It's entirely justifiable and I'm sick and tired SICK AND TIRED! yes of this shit. I dont wanna bother or care but sometimes it's just so hard to do so. But I will do everything humanly possible to maintain my sanity and prevent myself from losing it and finally tearing a throat or digging an eyeball out or something equally vicious. Believe me, the human wrath as very accurately portrayed by william blake is a really terrifying thing and my wrath's bore not only an apple but a whole fruitvine of tropical fruits! Alright that sounds stupid but yeah. That prospect scares me too but to hell with it I no longer own a concience in reference to some areas!
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Don't call or text me on my mobile! Beacuse. I. lost. it. today. Yessss. Damn my first time losing my phone! Urghhhh. And damn the woman/girl(female cos i lost it in the toilet) who found it to hell! It's so obvious she had every intention of keeping it as she cancelled my calls everytime I called my phone. And then she switched it off. What a bitch! I'd hope she'll lose her phone and wallet and keys and EVERYTHING she owns one day! ):
I guess you all can call my home if you needa contact me; till I get a new phone.
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Science and History PPP today
God I hate ppp! I prefer normal lessons! But oh well maybe it'll actually help improve some subjects cos practise makes perfect right? hahah yeah right, when I can't do three quarter of the paper!
Went to compass(again) for lunch with cheryl serene sherianne feli
Had yoshi and I'm like so sick of their food it's like so salty. But anyway we sat there talking and I said that when I get married I want my husband to bathe before coming hime for work and they made a joke out of it and alright it was quite funny I just laughed my guts out and woww it really made me feel better cos I'd been feeling kinda bad since morning. Not bad--sad and guilty! more like bad--pukey and angsty! And I felt and behaved like a priss all morning man urgh anyhows felt alot better(and less prissy) when I reached home
I even managed to read one chapter of bio! hahah without any disturbances! (:
Ohoh as I was earlier saying we had science ppp today
And I'm quuite cinfident about passing my bio ppp! yeah it's just ppp you'd say; but all the same I've decided to take it seriously and use it as a gauge of how much I'm improving(or de-proving for the record)
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Science and History PPP today
God I hate ppp! I prefer normal lessons! But oh well maybe it'll actually help improve some subjects cos practise makes perfect right? hahah yeah right, when I can't do three quarter of the paper!
Went to compass(again) for lunch with cheryl serene sherianne feli
Had yoshi and I'm like so sick of their food it's like so salty. But anyway we sat there talking and I said that when I get married I want my husband to bathe before coming hime for work and they made a joke out of it and alright it was quite funny I just laughed my guts out and woww it really made me feel better cos I'd been feeling kinda bad since morning. Not bad--sad and guilty! more like bad--pukey and angsty! And I felt and behaved like a priss all morning man urgh anyhows felt alot better(and less prissy) when I reached home
I even managed to read one chapter of bio! hahah without any disturbances! (:
Ohoh as I was earlier saying we had science ppp today
And I'm quuite cinfident about passing my bio ppp! yeah it's just ppp you'd say; but all the same I've decided to take it seriously and use it as a gauge of how much I'm improving(or de-proving for the record)
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Science and History PPP today
God I hate ppp! I prefer normal lessons! But oh well maybe it'll actually help improve some subjects cos practise makes perfect right? hahah yeah right, when I can't do three quarter of the paper!
Went to compass(again) for lunch with cheryl serene sherianne feli
Had yoshi and I'm like so sick of their food it's like so salty. But anyway we sat there talking and I said that when I get married I want my husband to bathe before coming home from work and they made a joke out of it which was funny and alright it was quite funny I just laughed my guts out and woww it really made me feel better cos I'd been feeling kinda bad since morning. Not bad--sad and guilty! more like bad--pukey and angsty! And I felt and behaved like a priss all morning man urgh anyhows felt alot better(and less prissy) when I reached home
I even managed to read one chapter of bio! hahah without any disturbances! (:
Ohoh as I was earlier saying we had science ppp today
And I'm quuite confident about passing my bio ppp! yeah it's just ppp you'd say; but all the same I've decided to take it seriously and use it as a gauge of how much I'm improving
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Science and History PPP today
God I hate ppp! I prefer normal lessons! But oh well maybe it'll actually help improve some subjects cos practise makes perfect right? hahah yeah right, when I can't do three quarter of the paper!
Went to compass(again) for lunch with cheryl serene sherianne feli
Had yoshi and I'm like so sick of their food it's like so salty. But anyway we sat there talking and I said that when I get married I want my husband to bathe before coming hime for work and they made a joke out of it and alright it was quite funny I just laughed my guts out and woww it really made me feel better cos I'd been feeling kinda bad since morning. Not bad--sad and guilty! more like bad--pukey and angsty! And I felt and behaved like a priss all morning man urgh anyhows felt alot better(and less prissy) when I reached home
I even managed to read one chapter of bio! hahah without any disturbances! (:
Ohoh as I was earlier saying we had science ppp today
And I'm quuite cinfident about passing my bio ppp! yeah it's just ppp you'd say; but all the same I've decided to take it seriously and use it as a gauge of how much I'm improving(or de-proving for the record)
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Sunday, September 25, 2005
My mom cooked curry for dinner tonight
When I just had some food poisoning shit today morning! Ugh
Oh before I forget today Liting and I did intercessory in church
And I swear this is the worst intercessory or church thing I ever did in my entire life! None of us planned anything properly cos I thought she had it sorted out and she had it typed on the slides which couldn't be used! and so we both just stood there like two bloody tomatoes not knowing what to do next! And then I mumbled "shit" and it could be heard over the mike
Oh deyy I know I'm not supposed to say sucha word during prayer! But it just slipped out y know like reflex action! Sorry about it :\ I'll have to learn to hold my tongue! uggghh/:
Got back from tuition bout an hour ago. My math's been improving! By leaps and bounds! Thanks to Tricia! Oh and today she told us that she's gonna get married soon! Wow haha somehow I can't imagine her actually having a boyfriend and engaging in something physical soon haha it's totally unimaginable
And she told us she got a big diamond ring from Lee Hwa or some place; she said she chose the Lee Hwa ring over the Tiffany's ring her boyfriend offered! She's crazy! I'll demand a Tiffany's or something when and if I ever get married hahah
And so we'll all be invited to her wedding (:
Tomorrow's Social Studies results day! Really hope to get at least a B3/A2 for it! Oh and the day after tomorrow's Humanities PPP(post prelim shit) ugh I can't imagine doing essys the whole day
My mom has guests over. Her friends I suppose
They're all talking really loudly and saying useless things I just heard two of them ask my mom "Is the dining table swiss wood?" whatever that means haha what boring conversation
But actually I kinda like it when there are guests over cos it means that my mom won't be bugging me till they leave and I can do whatever i want to! hehee
And it's good that they turn on the flourescent light so the staircase won't be so dark and eeky hahah
alright I'm off for dinner some more movies! (:
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
love that(:
My week's been pretty much the same! School and prelims then lunch after that with them girls again. My life's so routined now! I'm kinda relaxing into this everyday routine kinda thing but also resenting how drab life is
if you know what I mean
Just now I called my old friend Adeline Lau and found out that she had 13 points for her first prelims! Ugh! I felt as if I had the wind knocked out of my okay I was like oh man we were classmates in Secondary 1 and now she's getting 13 points while I'm getting 38 points! Urggghhhh then she told me to study and stop fooling around and I think that really knocked some sense into me and I spent the rest of the afternoon studying bio! And I just realised that I've only got ONE month to THE O LEVELS -gasp! and I have eleven chapters of bio/ the whole physics book/ six chapters of history/ sec three and sec four Social Studies books/ Sec three and four cheenahhh books/ about ten literature poems and a whole play to study! Darn shit I'll be so screwed in a month's time i think I'll really end up jobless and school-less soon ): someone please just catch me and force me at gun's point to mug please do me that favour! And the bad thing is I still cant seem to get my mind to mug -double gasp! ughughuhgughhh but one good thing is from today's mugging for two hours I found the joy of studying bio (: hahah
My sis has her friend over for dinner and movie they're downstairs and I can hear them yakking all the way from upstairs they're talking so friggin loudly and I can hear her friend talking with some accent thing it sounds so fake larh omigosh feel like slapping her for invading my space and spoiling the nice quiet environment in the house!
Oh well that's about all
gotta sleep early tonight feeling pretty drained and if I wanna be on tine for mass tomorrow I'd better go sleep
goodnight all!
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Cross my fingers and toes and hope that Human Nature poetry would be tested in tomorrow's Lit exam. Better still, let it be Poison Tree. I love William Blake. I hope he'll help me score well and make up for the screw-up in paper one.
Studies. After all, there's nothing else left worthy to put any effort into.
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
Friday, September 16, 2005
Oh I wanto cry now! I didn't have enough time to complete my Lit paper today! Urgh I only managed to write about 5 lines for the second part of my unseen prose passage! Wtf larh!so pissed with myself for having POOR TIME MANAGEMENT. And if only I had gotten extra 15 minutes like Julia, I might get an A! Hahah I'll have to bring a stopwatch for Os and time myself! :( Oh and I lost 10 friggin marks in Maths cos I didn't have enough time to complete my Cumalative Frequency Curve that I was so confident of scoring full marks for! Urgh shit okay I'm so disappointed in myself for losing marks just LIKE THAT! Booo I can forget about doing well for prelims now! Chinese paper was surprisingly easy though I fell asleep twice while doing it lol I could actually comprehend the passage for once haha that's goood
But anyway success only comes with effort and I didn't even study at all yesterday for today's papers I slept/read comics/watched tv for the whole day so if I fail it'll be appropriate
Anyway things have been pretty bleak lately but I've decided not to dwell on it too much hopefully the incredibly smooth ride that I've been enjoying this year would continue
THE DERANGED
AND DEMENTED! :D
